Thursday, January 30, 2014

It will not break me.

So my blog got a make over! As we all know I'm very indecisive and have a hard time committing to things. I'm obviously not sure I like it. I'm not sure I like my follow button, it doesn't seem to be working quite right. I also need a new signature, but I cant figure out how to get a new one. So right now this will work. 

I've been wanting to write more, to keep my blog and my facebook page more up to date. I just seem to have the worst writers block. It would be nice if someone would help me with topics. Every time I ask though, no one seems to have any suggestions. I'd love to write something that heart moms and dads would want to read, I just don't know what that is.

I've been frustrated with life recently. It seems that the medical bills will NEVER stop. By the time I get these cardiology bills paid off, it'll be time for another appointment. I love being in Utah, but part of me wonders if things would have been easier in Idaho. I just don't know anymore. It's hard to not be sure of things. 

I'm missing everyone. I miss my mom, I miss seeing her everyday, and having movie nights. I miss my niece and nephew. My brother got a new job in North Dakota. Its great, he really needed the job, but I'm sad he moved. He's no longer just three hours away. He's 12. I cant just get in the car and go see him and the kids. That just sucks. My boyfriend now works crazy hours and I hardly see him. I'd just love to cuddle and watch a movie, but no.

Oh and now my car is leaking fluid. It seems like everything is building up. Everything is trying to overwhelm me. It's trying to crash down around me, to suffocate me. To break me. I'm trying my hardest not to let it. I wont let it. But its hard. But that's why I'm trying to start back to this. To be able to get it all out. To work it out in words. If anyone happens to read it along the way, well that's awesome. If they don't, which I pretty much assume they wont. Well, that's okay too.

1 comment:

  1. I like the new layout, it's nice. Sorry you are going through a rough time right now. I know your mom misses you too. :)