Thursday, March 24, 2011

The Ending.

I'm sitting her trying to fix my Itunes and started to think about the book/movie My Sisters Keeper by Jodi Picoult
How or why that came into my head, I'm not 100% sure. Maybe because someone was talking about books earlier.
But anyways it made me think about how the movie ending was completely different then the book ending. I won't go into details for those who haven't read the book. But it really made me mad that they changed the ending.
The movie ending just shows that yes, sick people die. You can't always save them.
But the book ending. That shows something completely different. It shows nothing is ever 100% things happen spur of the moment. What you thought would happen, might not. And something you never even fathomed can happen in the blink of an eye.

I made the mistake of reading My Sisters Keeper shortly before I was suppose to have my open heart surgery at Primary Children in Salt Lake City Utah. I never had a good feeling about that surgery, in that hospital. I for some reason believed I would be seeing my father again soon. He died when I was 11. But when I finished that book it really hit. I can die. We all can, any minute of any day.
I never cried so much over a book before. Until that night. When I was home alone finishing My Sisters Keeper. When I finished reading that book and managed to dry my eyes enough to see, I ran to my room and grabbed my notebook. I wrote letters, to the most important people in my life. My mom, my brother, grandma, boyfriend, and best-friend.
Each letter started with "if you reading this, then I must have died during surgery." It went on to tell them how I knew this was coming, how much I loved them, and so on.

But anyways! Haha I always tend to ramble. But anyways, my real reason for this post, not just to share my sad story.
Is the ending is never certain. I learned that with this book. It put me on edge. But now that I am alive. Thanks to my surgery being switched to Sacred Heart in Spokane, now that I still have time and know the meaning of life. I plan on making the best of it.

I plan on making it a happy Ending.


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